After crying from reading my comments from yesterday (damn you girls) I thought about the challenge offered me by my twin BlaBru. My issue right now is trying to decide whatthe hell to do with my life. Mainly should I stay or in Georgia or move back home to Upstate NY. I recently lost my job and ended a 5 year relationship. The relationship is the main thing that kept me in GA after the friends I had moved here with had moved on (1 of the 3 is back home). I always say its hard to live here with not many friends or family. I do feel like I have a very small group of good frends here (MsThing, muffin, Christy, Kelly, Nicole) these girls would do anything for me and have been there for me through many trials. I enjoy living in the south (for more reasons than just the weather). Mainly I feel there is more opportunity here than back home. However, I am not really taking advantage of it so I guess it wouldn't be much different there. I would be lying if I said that some of this wasn't about Quis (put the guns down girls). The thought of not being able to see him when I want to is very hard to deal with. But maybe thats what I need too.
But then there is Sierra. And the best thing for her is to be home. I have thought for a long time that as long as she had me, she would be fine. I'm not sure that's so true anymore. It felt good to be home. Sierra was very happy to be there. But she did want to copme home. She LOVES her school. She couldn't wait to get back.
I think I would regret leaving without giving ATL another chance. But then if that didnt work out I would have to move again. Obviously I have alot to think about (or prepare for). Either way I wont be moving until my lease is up in My (and I am NOT moving back north until the snow is LONG gone).
Thank you for your comments (Sunshine, MsThing, BlaBru, Epi) I appreciate your honesty, concern and blessings! I love yall!!
UGHH...there are NO damn jobs!! I would end up back at Cornell University (if I'm lucky).
I did get a call for an interview yesterday (my girl Candy is trying to hook me up at her spot).
sheldawg at 1/08/2004 08:52:00 AM
Wednesday, January 07, 2004
I need a J.O.B.!!!!!!!!!!
I am NOT a person that can sit home all day! UGHH!! I'm sure if I had plenty of money would be fine. I would have places to go and MUCH shopping to do. I would have lunches and brunches. I would go tanning and get my fingers and toes done!! However, I have no money. I am driving on a spare tire and I have no gas money. So that isnt gonna take me far! I just sit here all day with no cable. It's been so muchworse since school started back. I don't even have Sierra here annoying me all day.
And then these mofo's at myOLD job keep calling me asking me questions abot this and that (SIGH) Didn't yall fire me??? Don't call me and ask me SHYT ok!!
I half thought about stayin in NY. I hav many reasons fo wanting to stay in GA, but where I want to be and where I need to be are two different things. I do regret that Sierra isn't growing up with her cousins and her friends. All my friends kids have school together back home. Sierra is not a part of all that. She has NO friends here in GA. I wouldn't even know how to act if I didn't grow up with my cousins. They were and still are a HUGE part of my life. I really have nothing holding me in GA right now since I don't have Quis or job.
However, I do hve so wonderful friends that have offered me everything from a place to stay to babysitter assistance. So I think I will stay in the dirrty for a lttle longer and see where it takes me.
I have mised out on so much with all my blogger friends. It is gonna take me forever to catch up with yall (Bla, Epitomi, Sunshine, Joy, Shun, Muffin...etc..) I epecially miss my Daily chats with MsThing. I am able to keep up with her life a little more regularly than everyone else since I am aways harrassing her via telephone (I love tha 1-800 number heheh) this chick and I have been chatting on a daily basis for like 3 years!! at least!! but since I have no damn job..I aint got nothin better to do!! hahhaha
Anyway, if anyone is still reading this..I really miss yall!! *sniffle*