*sigh* this sucks. I am so glad I have you blog. I can tell you all my problems and I can bitch and complain all I want and you won't run out and cheat on me!!! your great blog..I love you!
Men suck!! they do!!! they are so worried about their little fucking pride..they don't show emotions. How the hell??? are men human??? I know I have to "shake this off" but its not that damn easy. I go from being sad to angry so fast. But more than anything I'm confused and scared. Everyone is trying to tell me that this could be a power move for me..and that things happen for a reason. Fine..that's all good! but in the meantime. My heart and home are broken. And I still need to deal with how this may affect Sierra.
And ya know..it's like I am breaking up with his family too. Even as much as Blo gets on my nerves. He has been a huge part of my life. His family and friends have been my family and friends. Yeah yeah..maybe I should have made some of my own..sure. But that doesnt change the fact of my current situation. Woulda Coulda Shoulda...alot of things could have been done differently, but they weren't. I did what I thought was best in my relationship. Sure..I guess I was wrong sometimes. But so was he!! he is NOT innocent in this. At least I can stand up and take my blame...and hold my self respnsible for what I did wrong. He can't do that. He would rather throw the blame on ME!!
UGHHHH!!!! Okay..I will be a blogging mess until I get this out of my system!! so deal with it!!
sheldawg at 8/28/2003 09:29:00 AM
Dear SHELBY,
Traffic in your near neighborhood may be terrible today, SHELBY. Therefore, it might be a good idea to take care of your errands early in the morning and spend the rest of the day inside. If you have to go out later on, it's best to walk. Try to break out of your routine today. Otherwise, you might work yourself up into a frenzy over something you have no control over.
Funny how my horoscope doesn't mention that my damn life will fall apart.
I feel like the biggest idiot. How stupid could I be???? I knew what was going on, but I wanted to beleive him SOOOOO fuckin bad!!! it's funny how he claims our how problem is my not trusting him. Thats a real fucking comedic thing right there. I feel like someone has torn my heart out and tsomped on it then threw it out the windo so it could get run over by a few hummers and mack trucks!!!
I mean..in 4.5 years I have not had 1 day without this man. I don't know how to be without him. This is hard as hell!!! not like I haven't gone through break-ups before that have been hard (Jah, Quinton, Hondo and of course STEVE) I mean I KN0W I can make it, but right now I don't feel it. He has picked up most of his clothes, but still has other items to pick up. He is gonna take one of our dogs, Akosha, as soon as he has a place to take her (I don't even know where he is staying although I do have an idea) I am gonna keep Ghost and Tigger. It would be bad to seperate them since they have been together since they were born. Dogs mourn each other just like people do. Also they are really Sierra's dogs. We have talked about the splitting up of various furnitures items, electronics, DVD's and CD's. This is VERY depressing!! Movies and CD"s and all this stuff we purchased together. FUCK ME!!!UGHHHH!!!!
I am at work today..trying not to look like a damn mess! I hate like hell that I can't attend my cousin's wedding in NY this weekend. Thats JUST what I need right now. A trip home with my family and friends. Get away from athens and my apartment for a weekend.
I can't get the image out of my head of him and this other girl. It's driving me crazy. I almost have to drink and smoke myself into a coma at night to get any sleep at all. Nights are definatley the worst. Now I gotta find a damn roomate too!! shit fuck hell!!!!
sheldawg at 8/28/2003 05:39:00 AM
Tuesday, August 26, 2003
Dear SHELBY,
Ever heard of Foot-in-Mouth disease? You're liable to catch it today. Usually you're a witty, eloquent, pleasant conversationalist, but today you'll make one gaffe after another. It's as though you were juggling with bottles of nitroglycerin, ready to explode at a moment's notice. Your friends find the suspense breathtaking. What blunder will you make next?
Buhahahhahahahhah!!! okay..so I guess I should just REALLY watch what I say today, huh?
I got to work early this morning and it actually felt pretty good. I'm not sure why I am in a good mood today, but I'm not gonna fight it!! Maybe it's because I know we get free lunch today compliments of the Varsity!! Maybe it's because I spent a nice quiet evening at home with Quis *shrug* regardless I'm goin with it...I really hope nobody tries me today and messes up my good mood!!
I saw Nicole yesterday and her eye looks WORSE. After I saw her on friday I guess it turned froma lump into a full blown black eye. The bruise on her arm was worse too *sigh*.
OH YEAH!!! speaking of *SIGH*...I forgot to mention t hat when I got home from work yesterday Quis called me and told me he let Blo come and get his car from him at work!!!! UGHHH....can he PLEASE get a back bone and learn the word NO!!! dammit!
Okay..after the "adevnture" saturday morning. My weekend did get better. I spent Saturday cleaning the house and messin with Sierra. Saturday night night Krazykell stopped by and brought me some MUCH needed wine. Quis got home around 11 and we watched a couple movies.
Sunday morning, MsThing called me to inform me that Old Skool "The Legend of Billie Jean" was showing on Turner South. I LOVE old skool movies (St. Elmo's Fire, Breakfast Club, Sixteen Candles..etc) we are still waiting for them to show "The Last American Virgin".
We made plans to stop by KrazyKell's later in the day because her mom was frying a turkey and wanted us to come grub!! You don't have to ask me twice! I'M THERE!!! First we had to go to Buckhead and take TheMotherInLaw the monmey for the car note. She was in a rather talkative mood today. I was happy because her and I actually had a really good conversation (We made a point NOT to drive the Buick so they wouldn't see the dent I made) hahahha. We also stopped at Blo's house to check and see how his mother is feeling. She looks really good and has lost 49 pounds since her return home from the hospital!!
Then we headed to KrazyKell's to eat. A few other friends of hers stopped by with their kids so Sierra had a good time running around the back yard.
All in all it was a okay weekend (after Saturday morning).
I am a little dissapointed that my plans to see my brother tomorrow fell through. Actually at first he cancelled on me because he was in such a hurry to get to florida to see his bitchy lil girlfriend. NOW it turns out he will actually have to go to New Jersey to play the final week of the season with the New Jersey Cardinals. This same thing happened with him last year. He played the whole season with the Tennessee team (which is a lower level team) and then was sent up (to a higher team) in New Jersey at the end of the season.
Unfortunatley thats the problem playing in the mInor Leagues. If you ever want a chance at making it to the Big Time you have to roll with that kinda shyt. If they think for a second that you don't want to play where they send you..or you don't apprciate them thinking of you when they send players off to another team. You will never go anywhere.
Anyway, My mom said that my cousin Heather's wedding turned out pretty nice. Even in light of the Joyce-Connie battle. This friday is my cousin Dom's wedding! man if there was ANYONE's wedding I wish I could be at it's his. Dom and I have always been pretty close. I have spoken to my mom about making sure she takes ALOT of pictures for me. I better make sure I back that up with my sister too...just to be safe!
First of all..thanx for all your prayers! everything worked out fine with my rent. I'm broke as hell..but I got a place to live.
Now on to Nicole..
Before I left work yesterday I called her. She was just getting off the bus as her mother answered the phone. Once she entered the house she got to fussing with her brother about the mess he made that she has to clean. It happened so fast. Teh next thing I know the phone dropped, I hear scuffles and her mother yelling for her brother to get off of her, and nIcole crying. So I hung up. I wanted to make sure she was okay, but I didn't want to call back. I decided to wait until I got home. SO I went and picked Sierra up from school and headed to the house. Nicole called right after I got there and said she wanted to get out of the house. I told her I would be right there. When she came outside to get in the car I noticed a big ass lump on the side of her head near her eye. And she had a big bruise on her arm as well as various scratches.
This is so disturbing to me. I have never physically fought either of my siblings and couldn't imagine doing so to such and extreme. And with Nicole's mother having so many serious health issues you would think they would try to NOT give her so much stress! And for him to be hitting on a girl like that anyway. I have VERY strong issues with that due to personal experiences. Nicole is a good kid. I pray for her and her mother to be in a better situation. Neither the brother or the father are worth a damn!
She stayed at my house until she was ready to go to bed and I took her home. She was supposed to get up this morning and take the Navy exam her father is making her take. Then she was headed to a family reuinion. I wonder what they will all think of her nice black eye. I don't think either her father or brother are going.
Okay...now Quis *sigh*
*strapping on my vest preparing for the wrath of my UCB siblings*
Here's the deal. When he got home from work and told me he was going out. I was fine with it. I had a long night with Nicole and I was tired anyway. So whatever. Then when I spoke to him on the phone at 3:00am and he was dropping our friend Keasley off at home and said he would be home in 20-30 mins I beleived him. But when I woke up at 5 and he wasn't there!! I got a little upset. I proceeded to call his cell phone like 1000 times. Then I said..to hell with this..I gotta know. SO I grabbed Sierra and threw her in the car around 7am and headed across town to the last known location..keasley and Sharon's house. When I pulled in the driveway I was relived to see Quis' car. Okay so he WAS here. At least he hadn't lied. *sigh* so of course people here are still awake because they party hard over there. Keasley was on the porch. No Quis. He wasn't anywhere. Keasley said he left earlier. He was "surprised" to see his car outside. Okay...YOU DID HE LEAVE WITH?? *SIGH* *UGHHHH* I noticed his cell phone sitting in his car on the seat. Oh did I mention I kicked the shit out of the side of the car. There is a nice small dent there now.
Keasley said that Quis possibly left with one of two ofther guys that had been there earlier. He asked me to give him a ride back across town on my way home. I decided not to wait there to see who dropped him off. I didn't want to cause more of a scene with Sierra at my friends home.
I gave Keasley a ride and returned home. A few minutes later Quis arrived home. He claims to have left the house with Kaz and rode with him to drop someone off. They got high and dozed off. Kaz then woke up and took him back to his car. He saw the dent. He wasn't too upset. hahahah
Moving right along....
Today is my cousin Heather's wedding back home. I am SOO mad at my mom for calling me on her way from the wedding to the reception to give me the gossip. She is a trip yall!!!
Well..its saturday..lets see what today will bring!!!
Dear SHELBY,
Start your day by taking a few minutes to write in a journal, SHELBY. This activity provides an avenue for you to communicate and to connect with your inner being. Things you need to do, ambitions, and challenges can speak out while you're writing, providing a map of directions that need to be taken. Even if starting is difficult, stick with it. The words will come if you give it a chance, and it can make your day so much easier.
How interesting is that??? well today I will resume my regularly blogging routine. But, not until I get my rent situation secured.
I didn't end up going to see Bubba last night. Quis and I decided we didn't need to spend that money. We did go downtown and have a drink. Just because I didn't want to sit in the house and dwell over my problems. We saw some friends and tried to forget about the letter we got from our landlord. As my friends know about me...I'm a stresser...I stress. Most the time I stress WAY more than necessary. Right now I'm about 2 minutes away from a full blown ulcer!! I don't check my BP regularly, but Im sure it's high as hell right about now.
So, I'm gonna go get some work done this morning. I'll holla back around 10:30 and let ya know if I need a place to stay!!
sheldawg at 8/22/2003 05:26:00 AM
Thursday, August 21, 2003
*insert horoscope here*
UGHHH this virus is outta control. I can't even get my daily reading!!
I haven't blogged much this week. Mainly just because I have been WAY to frustrated. Which is odd because that's the whole reason I started the blog. To have a place to bitch and complain. Instead this week I have turned to my siblings for advice. I will return to my normal blogging schedule next week.
Until then, today is Thursday, 1 day closer to PAYDAY and the WEEKEND. Tonight I will be going to The Georgia Theatre to see Bubba Sparxx. Hopefully it will be fun!! even if the actual concert isn't. I know lots of people that are going so we can make our own damn fun!!
I spoke with Sierra's teacher this morning. I am SO glad to hear that she is doing so well in school so far this year. She has really taken to the computer.
sheldawg at 8/21/2003 07:27:00 AM
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
Dear SHELBY,
Your commitments and sense of faithfulness may be prominent, SHELBY. Is there something you've dedicated yourself to that doesn't feel as right or secure as it once did? If so, it might be time to consider talking with those that are involved about how you're feeling. Perhaps you need some reassurance that your commitment is as strong for the other person or maybe your needs have changed. Whatever the case, do something about it. sheldawg at 8/20/2003 05:28:00 AM
Tuesday, August 19, 2003
Dear SHELBY,
If you're feeling a little upset or stressed, SHELBY, don't stuff it in - seek out someone to talk with. As a Gemini, communication is essential for you and you're good at it. Talking your feelings out is often the quickest route to feeling better for you so pick up the phone and see about meeting a friend. Chances are it's you that does most of the listening. Today, do the talking. sheldawg at 8/19/2003 05:33:00 AM
Monday, August 18, 2003
OK..damn misses nice lady!! Im pissed. Im pissed that my man acts like a damn WIMP!! I shouldn't have to always be thet one to put my foot down. He has NO problem telling me a bunch of shit...why does he freeze up when it comes tohis boys. Just like with lil Mr. Hawk acting like everyone works for him. Just barking orders at folx. Trust me if that fool has EVER done anything for you he acts as if your endebted to him for life, like making a deal with the devil!! I don't owe him SHIT!!! Not that I don't appreciate the things he has done to help. But don't help someone if you are gonna forever throw it in their face!! It's not our fault you are in jail. And he has the nerve to be stressing us about getting our phone unblocked so we can accept his calls...for what???? so you can raise our phone bills up more?? so you can harrass us for money???? UGHHHHH
Did I mention that Blo took my car while I was asleep????? UGHHHHH. Basically, after being so furious on saturday about Zane showing up at the house so late friday evening (or was it early morning) and then him and Blo hanging out ALL day Saturday as well as Saturday evening while Quis was at work. I was under the impression on Saturday night that ALL 3 of them (Blo, Quis and Zane) were going downtown. Blo has gone to the mall and purchased the required hat and shoes. I was happy to know I would have some time to myself. Well, how wrong could I be. When Quis arrived home after work and got dressed for downtown I was informed that Blo had gone to pick up some broad and that he would be chillin at the house and not going with them downtown. Again, why did he not ask ME? I was home all evening.
When he got to the house with the girl I excused myself to the back and let him entertain his company. I was in no mood to start a scene. When Quis returned from the club he said the girl was gone. I was glad because I didnt was Sierra to wake up and find anything inappropriate in the living room. alittle while later Zane and Blo left. I was so happy. I immediatley grabbed the fam and made moves to the car for an outing. Only to find that my seat appeared to have been moved *gasp*. Did someone use my car??? Sho Nuff..Blo had used it while I was sleeping to drive his company home. I dont think I have to tell anyone how pissed I was.
Luckily ShawtyDoWop came thru with her frozen "Pink Panties" drink Sunday afternoon and had me feeling better *smile*. We had a BBQ for the kids.
Then Blo came back...of course it wasn't until LATE when I was headed to bed. I didn't mention the car. I am totally drained..I don't have the energy to get into a discussion with someone that wouldnt understand anyway.
So now he is at the house again. I called there to see if he was there still since I had planned on going home for lunch. He is still there and doesnt know when he will be leaving. Quis is at work until 9pm which means Sierra and I will be home with Blo again.
okay..I have no feeling in my right arm at all right now. Lemme consult with my doctor sunshine and see what could be wrong!!
Dear SHELBY,
If you feel like you just haven't anything left to give, it may be time to refill your own 'well', SHELBY. Giving until it hurts doesn't really help anyone. When you let things drain you so completely, taking care of yourself can be difficult. Take some action to nurture yourself. Turn off the phone and don't answer the door if that's what it takes. Learn to say 'no' to avoid situations like this.
This horoscope is SO on point!!! I am drained!! emotionally and physically! I do need to take some time for me. I will actually have to make time to take time!!
To update the "Blo" situation. It's not him as a person that bothers me. I really like Blo. He just doesnt really have any concept of responsibility and it really annoys me. It's not entirely his fault. His momma has never really made him be responsible. I don't mind him being at the house..he is family after all. It's when he takes advantage of the situation that I get upset.
My home has never been a "hang out" NEVER. I have lived on my own since I was 18. Before Sierra came along I admit I lived a party life. I was young and I could do that. Kim, Shannon and I lived alone and we REALLY had a good time. After Sierra was born I cut alot of that out of my life. I still partied and hung out, but the festivities no longer took place in my home. And this is the way it has been for 10 years. I have a VERY low tolerance for nonsense in my residence.
Okay...I'm gonna have to finish this later...it's VERY hectic in my office today with UGA back in session...*taking an advil* the monster came early this month and it couldn't have picked a worse time to come!! grrrrrrrrrr
I am very happy to say that both the issues I had to deal with yesterday have been handled and everything is fine!! YAY! I basically did what my horoscope told me to do and tried to relax and take each problem one by one. Usually I try to tackle too many thing at once and end up completely overloaded with stress.
When I got off work friday I went to the bank and then headed home. I did some cleaning and then KrazyKell came by to get me since I told her I would help her paint her new place. We had to go pick Sierra up at school then go to Lowes and pick up all kinds of paint.
When we finally got to her new house we were already exhausted. It was EXTREMELY hot inside the place. Most of the windows dont even open, NONE of them have screens..I felt like I was in cuba!
After returning home, I immediately jumped in the shower to wash all the sweat and paint from my body. Soon after, Blo showed up. So I spent another friday in the house with Blo while Quis went downtown.
I awoke Saturday morning to finding anothr one of their friends on my couch. Umm...I don't remember clearing this!!! *sigh* How do you just tell people to come over to someone elses house without even asking the people first?? Quis and I didn't go to bed until after 3:00am so this guy couldn't have showed up until after that!! what the hell is that about? I tried to discuss this with Quis and let him know that he MUST put his foot down. No one listens to me..they totaly block my voice OUT ok! they are just like "there goes Shelby complaining again" blah blah blah! Liek I have no say over what goes on! I guess after 5 years they just feel like if Quis isn't backing me up..forget what I say!! Most of the time he agrees with me too..but for whatever dum ass reason he has, he wont say shit!! UGHHH
Anyway, im gone for now. I'm sure I'lll be back on later as I sit here alone (they are all going downtown again) my monster should be making an appearance soon..I think thats why I would rather take a hot bath than run the streetz right now (and besides Nicole is avoiding me since I asked her to babysit..grrrr)
sheldawg at 8/16/2003 05:49:00 PM
Friday, August 15, 2003
Dear SHELBY,
You may be preoccupied with a certain thought that just does not want to seem to leave your head today, SHELBY. Perhaps you will be bombarded by a barrage of thoughts, keeping your mind tangled like a web of crossing phone lines. Dealing with the frenzy of activity all at once may put you into a cloud of helpless confusion. Try to avoid stress and frustration by taking a series of long deep breaths, clearing your mind, and just concentrating on one small issue at a time.
**TAKING DEEP BREATHS** I hope this helps. Ihave 2 very big issues to deal with today. I am actually leaving work at 12 to deal with them. This is basically the situation.
1) yesterday I received a call from my credit union. They told me that at my earliest convenience they need to speak to me *GASP*. The lady on the phone then assured me that it was nothing that I had done, but rather a mistake that they had made. However she still wants to discuss it with me in person. VERY SCARY!! I have NO idea what this could be about.
2) Due to the unfortunate financial situation Quis and I are in right now we haven't been able to pay our rent yet this month. Aside from the fact that our apartment has flooded twice in one week (the kitchen and then the bathroom) I do need to go talk to them about the rent. We received a letter yesterday discussing late fees and the possiblity of eviction. *sigh*
I really wasn't able to sleep well last night. Aside from having all this on my mind I was worried about my grandmother being in that blackout in NY. She was nervous about being home alone and having to sleep with her windows open. It was very hot and there was no way for her to use her a/c or her fan. Luckily she was able to use a phone since she still owns a damn rotary phone. It's funny how many times my wealthy uncle has bought her countless expensive modern phones and gadgets of all kind, she has insisted on keeping the throwback classics. It's a good thing she did. Where as many of my friends were out of luck because they only own cordless phones.
Anyway, I have work things to deal with now. Hopefully I can get these other issues outta the way so I can relax and enjoy my weekend.
Dear SHELBY,
You may be feeling bogged down without really understanding why, SHELBY. More than likely, you're feeling like a bird trying to lift a ton of lead straight up into the air. The moral of the story is, don't waste all your energy trying to move something that you know is not going to budge. You are better off calling a large mechanical crane to come do the work for you, even though it may take a bit of time waiting for it.
Okay here are the WHY??? Questions of the day....
Scientists in China have for the first time used cloning techniques to create hybrid embryos that contain a mix of DNA from both humans and rabbits, according to a report in a scientific journal that has reignited the smoldering ethics debate over cloning research.
Eagle, Colo. -- Racist fliers were scattered Tuesday on lawns and windshields in the town where Los Angeles Lakers star Kobe Bryant is to go on trial on sexual assault charges.
Later Tuesday, a white supremacist group acknowledged leaving the fliers -- headlined "Don't have sex with blacks" -- and said they were in response to the Bryant case.
I don't think I have to mention how much people piss me off!! I can't even begin to comment about my feelings on this right now..I just wanted to share this nonsense with yall!!! UGHHHHHHHH @ racist mofo's!!!!
How you gonna try to tell people who the hell they can fuck!! DAMMIT!!! These people have tried for many years to get people to follow them. They are such cowards!!! NO ONE IS LISTENING!!! the only followers they will EVER truly have are those in their own family!!! inbred bastards!!!! they raise their children to have these beliefs before the child is even in school!!
MsThing was telling me that when she was in Destin, Fl she saw some confederate BABY tshirts!!! please explain this???? *sigh* I have said it before and I'll say it again...WORRY ABOUT YOU!!!!!! why spend your life trying to make other people feel how you feel. When you don't even know how you feel. Your parents raised you that way so you think it's right!!! you don't even know what you hate!!!
Dear SHELBY,
Legal matters prove very beneficial for you today, SHELBY. You might be discussing contracts, or perhaps even a wedding! Romance also appears to be flying high for you at this time, partly due to an animated discussion of new ideas that interest both you and your beloved, and partly due to a rush of sexual energy. Remember, however, that day-to-day communication is also very important in keeping love alive. Enjoy your day.
I don't know about all that shit in my horoscope, but I will tell you that I feel like SHIT today!! my throat hurts and my head is beating outta control! Then I come to work. Im not sure why I didn't just keep my as in bed. Actually yes I do know why. Because I thought my coworker was gonn be out today and with all the new students arriving I didn't want to leave my Supervisor here alone. Well..that heffa did come in to work. So I could have stayed home. Dammit!
My phone is the main switchboard for our department...it's not working today! and then..my printer hasn't worked for like a week. Where are those nerdy tech folx that are supposed to come fix it???? do theythink I just don't need it or what? I guess I should just make a whole bunch of documents for the hell of taking up room on my hard drive and never actually printing!!! UGHHH!!!
Then..The heffa that was supposed to stay her ass at home. Comes in and turns the a/c on full blast! it is NOT that hot at 8:00am!! not my fault if your going thru menapause take a pill and lay down!
I really need to just go home.
In happier news...MsThing returned from her trip with TheMan and they had a great time. I am so happy for her. He is a great guy!! and he really appreciates her. He enjoys doing things she enjoys doing..JUST because she enjoys it!! thats the coolest shit ever!! and thats how it should be!
I can't wait for suedemuffins to return from Cali. I really some time with the UCB. A nice dinner and a ladies night out with really help right about now!
Well I'm gonna go try to make this Wednesday happen!!
Dear SHELBY,
Some interesting books or Web sites that expand your horizons could come to your attention today, SHELBY. A rather emotional letter or phone call from someone far away could have you in a state of shock. The news could be good or disconcerting, but either way, you're not likely to be thinking too clearly right now, so don't try to make any sense of the situation. Wait a day or two, then try to discern the facts.
Okay Dammit now im gonna be on guard all day. I hope if there is any news..it's good!! I can't take any "disoncerting" information right now. I am a firm believer in the fact that God gives people just as much as they can handle. I think I have taken my share!! I can give himsome numbers of some poepl he can call though! lol
I spoke to MsThing last night. Her and TheMan are thouroughly enjoying their vacation. I am veryglad it didn't rain on them. They were headed to a cruise when I spoke to her last night!! I am eagerly awaiting details and pictures from their trip.
I am sure by now that everyone has had the opportunity to frequent these stores. I do, however, have a co-worker who has only recently had her eyes opened to the world of ALL FOR A $1!! I have no idea how she has survived without stepping in one of these stores. This is like..not going to Wal-Mart!! I mean...you can get name brand cleaning supplies, Hair supplies and things for your home for VERY reasonable prices without having to fight the crowds at the larger discount stores.
Mind you..at Dollar General and Family Dollar you will pay more than $1 for most of the items BUT not by much. You can still get almost everything for under $20 at least.
They have lots of cute things to decorate your home. Not quite as cool as Pier 1, but with my limited spending it suits me just fine! and really no one can tell! and if they can..they too have shopped at the dollar heaven!!
Im not sure why I watch the shows I watch because most of the time it just scares the crap outta me and then I sit up for the rest of the night with only my dogs to protect me. I just find it very interesting how people commit crimes and then are tracked down for years based on a small red fiber from their carpet. People do really stupid stuff!! and they always think they are so damn smart. Cleaning up their tracks. No sir..those forensic guys don't miss shit! I'm not sure if my fascination comes from my personal experience with Steve or what. I have often thought of going to school for forensic studies, but the reality of the situation is that I suck at science and math so I wouldn't be too good!
If there is anyone else that has the same odd interests as me...here are some of my favorites
And of course I watch Cops, Mugshots and America's Most Wanted. I'm not entirely sure why I watch America's Most Wanted because if I ever actually so one of these creeps at the local Wal-mart I wouldn't do shit but run!!
sheldawg at 8/11/2003 06:45:00 AM
Dear SHELBY,
Today you might find that you have less money than you thought, which could cause a temporary upset. Still, overall you should be doing well financially, and this trend is likely to continue. You might hear of a large sum of money that's coming your way, which should more than offset the shortfall. All this aside, SHELBY, this promises to be a very pleasant day. Don't let a negative mood spoil it for you.
Okay...I don't know about the financial part of this horoscrope However, I do hope the rest of it proves to be true. I have been in a slump the past few days and I have been feeling much better. I guess I just got plenty of rest this weekend *shrug* either way even the fact that it's raining yet again isnt gonna spoil my mood!
My supervisor is back from a 10 day vacation today so I guess my vacation is over too!! haha. Actually tomorrow I have to start inventory *sigh* this is a very annoying process. I have to go around to all our department's offices and labs and scan every peice of equipment that has a university control number on it. Which is just about every thing!! I mean anything you buy with "university" money is considered their property. SO once a year you gotta make sure all that shit is here or someone is going down!! so needless to say this will take a couple days and will keep me away from my desk. Which, I guess, isnt entirely a bad thing, but still!
Well..I need to go get something to eat. I'll have more interesting stuff to say on a full stomach!
Dear SHELBY,
Don't assume that you are going to have all the right answers today, SHELBY. More than likely, you could become a bit confused because of self-doubt, making it hard for you to come to any solid decisions. Try to proceed slowly and patiently. Tackle those things that you are sure of before you deal with the ones you aren't. There is no sense in trying to surmount a mountain when you haven't even climbed the foothills below it.
Okay this doesn't sound knew. I often look too far ahead when making decisions. Then I stress about all the "side" things that will happen as a result of my decision. This is all part of me being a gemini.
Last night was very laid back. I went over to ShawtyDoDop's house for some of her famous frozen "pink panties" drink. I lOVE this drink. After that I came home and chilled with Quis.
Nothing going on today either. I told Sharon I would come by her party tonight. I havent spoken to nicole about babysitting yet. If all else fails I can sit here alone again and make some more frozen drinks!
I haven't been inmuch of a blogging mood lately. Not that I don't have anything going on or anything to say (I always have drama of one kind or the other) I guess I just havent felt like typing!
Yesterday was Sierra's first day of 3rd grade. She had a great day! I picked her up from afterschool (her hair was the HOTTEST mess ever) and then arrived home to find a letter from Steve. There was a picture of them and 2 letters, 1 addressed to me and the other to Sierra. He wanted me to know how sorry he was that he hasn't been able to help purchase school clothes for Sierra...blah blah blah!! Why does he still bother to write. Why does he waste a stamp..doesnt he need that lil bit of money for deodorant or something!
I also had a small disagreement with Quis. He went downtown again last night *sigh* I don't know why I am having such a hard time dealing with the reality of what our relationship has become. We are not in sync anymore! We love each other VERY much, but we just arent in the same place right now. I hope its something we can shake off and keep it moving!! we are very stressed out financially right now and its putting alot of pressure on the relationship! I really have alot to think about when it comes to this situation..Ill get back to you on it!
I hope I get over this "moment" I'm having. This has really been an off week for me. Myabe just because SIerra is home and my life has made a transition from running the streets back to a normal housewife routine.
Anyway, at least my office will be very quiet today. I think I'm gonna take a long lunch by myself and just enjoy the rainy weather.
Dear SHELBY,
You may be on a roll from yesterday's high, SHELBY, and you will find that this terrific mood continues well into the day. The one problem is that there may be some aggressive actions on the part of someone else who is trying to find fault with the way you are handling things. You may not even begin to understand why this conflict is coming your way. More than likely, it is someone else's set of issues that needs to be dealt with, not yours. sheldawg at 8/08/2003 05:21:00 AM
Thursday, August 07, 2003
Dear SHELBY,
Faraway places with a mystical air about them could be calling you, SHELBY. Are you daydreaming about possibly making a visit to Egypt, India, Israel, Stonehenge, or the Australian outback? Think about it, and do a little research on the subject, but don't make any definite arrangements today. Your head may be too far up in the clouds to deal with the practicalities right now. Wait a day or two. sheldawg at 8/07/2003 05:13:00 AM
This is a friend of mine since like..umm...4. She was really my very first friend. We have ALOT of really crazy stories from our childhood. She lived across the street from me and I used to have to have my ass back on my side of the street when the street lights came on. We walked to school together EVERYDAY until 5th grade. Then we took the bus together. We used to play hide and go seek in Vista Circle apartments (aka the Court) and meet the crew everyday by the big tree. The big tree was the source of all neighborhood drama. It was the tree we all climbed (I can climb the highest..no matter what they say). Where the boys would meet for their daily "how can we torment the girls today" meeting. The girls being me, trinity, shauna and becky. We always tried to escape our younger siblings. Trinity's folx were very much like my second parents. Her father is very ill right now so my prayers are with her and her family.
There is so much I can say about our friendship I can write for days...the most important thing is. That she is my girl! we went for years without speaking due to many different reasons. We were reuinted a few years ago and have vowed to stay in touch and we have. Anyway, she's a great girl with a beautiful family and I'm glad to have her as a friend !
sheldawg at 8/06/2003 06:08:00 PM
I just wanted to mention that as much as I have to complain about my job at the University of Georgia, I will say that I have been lucky enough to work in 2 different Departments on campus that have been very understanding about family issues. I am able to bring Sierra to work with me anytime I need to. That is something that I appreciate so much!! it's worth way more than money to me! Even though I don't always appreciate other peoples children being able to come to work with t hem. I can certainly understand being in a bind and having no other choice. As long as you keep the children occupied so they are not bothering your coworker. Sierra is pretty cool. She only bothers ME!
sheldawg at 8/06/2003 07:27:00 AM
Dear SHELBY,
Today you could well find yourself giving a lot of thought to the worlds beyond, and wondering about the best way to learn more about them. Books may prove enlightening, SHELBY, but right now you might get the best results from disciplines that combine physical and mental energies, such as yoga or Tai Chi. The sense of well-being that follows exercise can produce the endorphins that result in states of higher awareness. Seek and you shall find!
Ooookay then...
My mind is racing this morning with things to blog about and I just know I will forget something. I almost logged on when I returned home at 1:30am, but instead decided to lay down and take my ass to sleep!
First of all I am very thankful to mother nature for holding the rain back for the concert last night!! it started raining just as we got in the car to head home..perfect timing!!
Photos from the show (courtesy of Atlanta Journal Constitution)
We rode to the concert with a friend of Quis and his girlfriend. We made good time and arrived in the parking lot in time to pop the trunk and drink on something before we headed in. While in the parking lot I received a call from Nicole, who was informing me that my little princess Sierra had just slapped her and spit at her!! *sigh* ya know..she just got back from a month with her grandparents so I guess she has forgotten how we do it down herre!! I assured Nicole I would tend to the situation as soon as I got the chance. We went into the concert as Fabulous was coming off stage. We caught his last 2 songs. It was still daylight and the sun was beating hard as hell out on that hill (but it wasn't raining :)) after Fabulous came Sean Paul then Busta Rhymes, who by the way was rather hostile at the crowd for their non responsive behavior!! "I am so sorry Busta..I love you...but you couldn't hear me because I was waaaaaaay the hell back there!!" Sean Paul came back on stage with busta as did Bone Crusher...(there was no way you wouldn't have known you were in ATL when he got on stage).
Am I forgettingsomeone?? I dunno because 50cent came out and killed everything!! he looked so cute! I'm not exactly sure how I feel about his son touring with him and being on stage so often with all those grown men. He knows all the owrds to every song. Not saying that most kids these days don't..but here this child is on stage cussing up a storm. As cute as it is..its not just as much! Anyway, his performance was off the chain..
Then came Jay Z...anyone that's a Jay Z fan already knows how this went down!! LOVE HIM!! Pharrel came out and, of course, Jermaine Dupri. I realize I am missingalot of details here, but my head was in the green clouds so the pictures in my head are way more detailed than my words could ever be. After the show they had a HUGE fireworks show that lasted about 20 minutes. It was awesome!! :) It took us an hour to get out of the parking lot. I slept the whole way home :)
SIerra is at work with me today. We have Open house tonight and school starts tomorrow. After I catch up with whatever work I have missed teh past 2 days I will holla back!!
sheldawg at 8/06/2003 05:42:00 AM
Tuesday, August 05, 2003
Dear SHELBY,
Books, particularly those by female authors, could be a prime source of entertainment for you today, SHELBY. A friend may phone you up and recommend some, which could send you running to the library or bookstore as soon as the call is over. Romance is on your mind, so expect to find romantic novels more appealing than usual. If you can, schedule an evening alone with your lover! You need warmth and tenderness!
*expecting a call from the book queen MsThing* It has been a very long time since I have read a good book. I know if there is anyone that can recommend some it's MsThing.
Well today I set myself up again. I have been so determined to get my hands on some tickets to the JayZ/50 cent concert I wasn't even thinking about the fact that it's gonna be raining HELLA hard and we will probably get struck by lightening!! This summer has been very rainy in GA. The last concert we attended at the ampitheater was the Hot 107.9 Birthday Bash. We were very lucky that day because it rained before the concert and then was dry the rest of the evening. I don't think we wil be so lucky today *sigh*. It's all good tho. We will just charge all that to the game and keep it movin'
KrazyKell and the Queens
So I guess the latest drama is that the Queens moved out and back in with one of their momma's, however not before PrettyTroy and her had a HUGE fight which ended in her actually throwing HOT GREASE at him..*sigh* this is not a Will and Grace moment at all!! Luckily for everyone involved. He was not seriously injured with the grease. I just don't know what comes over people sometimes. Lets all hold hands and pray for this whole group ok!
sheldawg at 8/05/2003 06:57:00 AM
The first thing I must do today is give a huge shout out to my girl suedemuffins. While we were all sleeping she crept in and hooked my blog up!! the new layout and color is so awesome!! she did think pink in honor of Sierra the Princess!
If anyone out there is interested in having their site designed by the HTML fairy..she is available for HIRE you can visit her website from the link above to contact her. She is well worth the money so holla at playa!!
sheldawg at 8/05/2003 05:37:00 AM
Monday, August 04, 2003
Dear SHELBY,
A welcome letter bringing good news regarding money could come your way today, SHELBY. This might come just in time to enable you to purchase something new for your home. Conversations with those close to you bring new and exciting ideas, and in some way contribute to an increased sense of self-esteem. Women are apt to be involved in some way. An opportunity to earn some money through writing or speaking could also appear on the horizon.
Its' Monday, I am off work today and home with my baby!!! we drove to Johnson City, TN yesterday to go pick her up from my parents. That's where my brother is staying and where he minor league team is home. The trip was only 3 hours!! I was SOO glad. Quis hasn't been feeling well and we had NO money. SO anything more woulda been awful. We were lucky though because we had very good weather driving and no construction or traffic, which is usually what we run into anytime we make a trip.
It was nice seeing my family. I don't see them often enough. My brother was looking GQ as always! it's so weird to think he is the same boy that I grew up with! where did the litte annoying nerd go?
Anyway, now its back to life as I remember it before this summer began. School starts Thursday and I will be back into my regularly scheduled routine.
I am still scheming on a way to get the tickets to the Jay Z/50 Cent concert tomorrow!! Blo, of course, didn't buy tickets. Maybe this is where my horoscope will come into play!!
Dear SHELBY,
It is impossible for you to remain indifferent to the phenomenon created by the active astral energy at play, SHELBY. You are probably just like those other Geminis; remembering all the wonder you felt as a child, the first time you experienced adventures into unknown worlds, through books, movies, and your vivid imagination. Try to harness the possibilities brought up by this dreamy yet strengthening energy. Visualize your future...
okay a damn throwback horrorscope!!! lemme go reminisce...ahhhh yes!!! will be future lead me back to ITHACA??? lets' really focus on not letting that happen.
Okay, last night, Quis went downtown with BigWeave and some people from Longhorn. I guess they have some thursday night tradition now *sigh* they even had some damn tshirts made up! can u believe that shit??? so damn lame!!!
Today I may ride up to Gwinnett to see a friend when I get outta work. I only have 2 days left until Sierra gets home so I am trying to shine! since I am dead broke I doubt imma be shining to bright, but imma see what I can do!
Blo is supposed show up sometimes this weekdn with our tickets to the concert. I have decided to take all day monday and half of tuesday off work! im not gonna feel guilty about it either. Im just gonna enjoy myself!
Our office phones are out today! this is gonna make for a long day if service doesnt return soon...
sheldawg at 8/01/2003 06:13:00 AM
